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How did I let myself slip so far? It all started when my parents came to visit last year and I haven’t been as focused since… I don’t feel myself.

My confidence is lacking and I’m constantly questioning myself and my husband because of the way I see myself in the mirror. It’s sad that I let myself get so affected. It’s also sad to see that I have lost a lot of muscle and strength that I worked so hard for.

It has now been a couple months since I’ve been to the gym, mainly because I have been so consumed with work. It’s not right, not making time for myself.

So here I am, making a promise to myself, to get back on my motivation train and look and feel better than ever!

Here we gooo!

Went for a nice run today at the gym. I have been neglecting my cardio as of late and got to blow off some much needed steam. (It was a stressful day.) I realize I get a crazy good workout when I’m mad. It feels good, and boy do I feel great afterwards. Here’s to another day of awesome cardio tomorrow. Gotta melt all my fat and I’ll probably still need to relieve some stress. Good night!

I hate falling off track. The worst part is it happened twice. Both time because I got sick! When I’m sick I am too weak to workout and I eat what I can because I want to get better. Fast forward to feeling fat and nasty. 

Granted, I haven’t let myself fall that far back, but my body doesn’t feel right. I’ll post in a bit with my workout log. Feels great to be getting back on schedule.

I was excited and nervous to do shoulders today, since I managed to get sick and miss last weeks workout. I didn’t do too bad, and boy are my shoulders super pumped right now! We did 3 sets of every exercise (10 reps) as opposed to 3 sets of the shoulder press and 2 sets of the rest, since we did rear delts yesterday:

Shoulder Press: 27.5 lb dumbbells

Smith Machine Shoulder Press: About 45 lbs, since the bar weighs about 15 lbs, and I had 15 lbs on each side

Side Lateral Raises: 15 lb dumbbells

Upright Rows: 45 lb barbell

I love shoulder days. Please no more sickness so I can get back on track and not feel like I’ve been away from the gym forever.

Back at the gym and I am about 97% on my health status. It felt great. Changed up our back routine last week and did it again this week. Skipped abs and saving it for tomorrow, and also threw in rear delts at the end of our back workout.  Here’s what we did today:

For each exercise: Reps: 10 Sets: 3 

Lat Pulldowns - 75 lbs (Changing to chin-ups next week on the little machine to help me get geared up for some real ones)

Rows on machine - 40 lbs

Reverse Grip Pulldowns - 75 lbs

Reverse Grip Barbell Rows - 45 lbs

Stiff Leg Deadlifts - 80 lbs

Rear Delts on Machine - 40 lbs

Can’t wait for shoulders tomorrow. I was so sad I missed it last week. 

But feeling much better! So what did I do? I accompanied Pete to the gym to do what of all things? Chest & Tri’s! I thought about staying home, but you know, he needed his number one spotter haha.

Still at 30 pound dumbbells for my flat bench, but was pretty strong on my first set. I didn’t to stay for tri’s and thought about going to do it tomorrow, but Pete pushed me and said I’d feel better. I guess I did, but I can’t wait to shower and pass out.

Good night. I can’t wait for my day off tomorrow.

I feel like I’m droning on and on about the same things. Day 1: Back & Abs, Day 2: Shoulders, Day 3: Legs, Day 4: Biceps, Day 5: Chest & Tri’s, Rest Day, then back to Day 1: Back & Abs… The only thing that changes is the weight I push, and that’s only sometimes.  I have no problem with the repetition of my training, but I’m sure no one wants to hear the same shit all the time.

What else can I possibly blog about on my fitness journey? I haven’t taken pictures in like 5 weeks. BOO! Maybe I’ll update that on Sunday, but then again, I’ve been sick and have been on a workout hiatus since Back and Abs day. I’m not sure how those pictures will look. We shall see.

I hate not being able to go to the gym and sweat things out, but the truth is, I am getting winded, weak and my sore throat acts up from just walking up/down the stairs at work or around the office to the damn copy machine. So, I think going to push heavy weights would be counter-productive at this point.

I guess this is my rest week that I was supposed to be taking in a couple of weeks. I’m not happy about it, but my immune system really needs all of its strength. I should be sleeping now, esp. with work in the morning, so toodles!